I'm Almost There.....

I woke up this morning and was up in weight a skosh from yesterday. Most days I question why that is. I usually figure it out right away. Today, though, it did not even cross my mind to be curious about that. I was actually excited.

Remember I told you that I am having this little contest with my aide over who can get to their goal the fastest? Well, as of this morning, I am1.6 pounds away from mine. She is over 3 pounds away from hers. I will have this off in a day or two. I am not necessarily excited about winning. In fact, quite the opposite. I think it would be good for her to beat me, in more ways than one. To lose more weight in less time than a WW leader would be something to hang your coat on, right?

However, she is kind of a "sore winner" if you will. I don't want to win to gloat. or brag. or even to ever bring it up again. I want to win, just so I don't have to hear her talk about it alll the time....talk, sing, dance, whoop, you know.

She is doing a great job. I am proud of her. She looks great. And it sure is fun to have someone eating the same as me at work. Used to be that she very easily influenced me to have Taco Bell for lunch. Not anymore. Once she realized I was serious, it kind of kicked in for her.

Random thought:

I started a new 3 month journal this week. I really like the quotes in here. Some of them have been my inspiration for my blogs. Here is the one in week one, day 2: "Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all."

Do you ever feel like that? This is the third or fourth week in a row that you have been up or the same. Everyone seems to be working against you. The stress is mounting. The food is everywhere. All hope is slowly drifting away? You are thinking about quitting WW, because you just aren't "getting it"? Why try?

I will tell you. You are worth it. Before Ben Franklin discovered the lightbulb, he found 10,000 ways NOT to make a lightbulb work. (Or so it goes something like that.) It is too early in your weight-loss journey to give up now. We have only just begun. Look how much you have lost so far. Why would you quit now? So you can go home, gain more weight and have to lose more? Why not just stick it out right here, right now where you are and DO IT?

So much more can be accomplished with the support of others than alone. This IS the way to do it. WE are all here for you.

Random thought #2:
Let's talk about maintaining our weight. I think this is much harder than losing. Losing is easy compared to this. Why?! Have you ever played a balance game? Try not to sway from one side to the other too much. Just like weight loss. You don't want to continue to lose (at least not too much), but you definately don't want to gain anything.

How much of it is in our own heads? I don't know. I do know this.....when I was "maintaining", I was really just slowly gaining. That lead to a whole bunch of other issues. Right now I am on the downward slide still. I am approaching my original goal of losing 10% of my weight. However, I think that to have a nice healthy BMI, I would like to be 5-8 pounds less than that. So, for the timebeing, I am still a "loser", not a "maintainer". Once I get there, I will blog that journey.

Here is what went through my head: I can gain a bit, I am pretty far below my goal. I am not there yet, it is ok if I gain some more. My clothes fit ok, a couple of more pounds would be no big deal. Then I got to my goal. OK. as long as I can get back down before the next official weigh-in, I will be fine. Then it happened.....I was living for eating like crazy for two weeks so that I could take off the weight in orde to be in compliance for the next weigh-in. How crazy is that????!!!

I knew that I could do it. By do it, I mean lose the weight. So why play the games with myself and my job every month? Because I could. Did I like it? NOOOO!!! And it was stressful.

You know what ? I am much happier now, working the program the way it is supposed to be worked. I am in smaller size clothes. I get at least one compliment a day from someone. My husband has noticed (I don't know why he did not notice the last time I lost this weight, but.....) and I think he likes me more. Life is good. Work hard.

Today's diddy: " If you fail to plan, you plan to fail." --Author Unknown