Had to ramble for a bit...sorry.

Another GREAT meeting Saturday. I don't know about you, but I always leave there motivated to succeed. You guys just pump me up. We also had 5 new friends added to our group. Isn't that exciting? I can't remember the last time that I had that many people at a Getting Started Session. How much fun is that?

I know that you are on the road to doing great things with whatever your goal is for 2009. I hope that you have by now, choosen one thing (remember your assignment for the week?) to change in your lifestyle to allow for that goal to happen. Make the committment to make that happen by Saturday. I know that you can.

I would really like the chance to get to know some of you better. I never see some of you at the scale any more. I hope that you are not avoiding me. I want to be there to support you, cheer you, and help you when you need it. I don't know if you are losing or gaining...losing, I hope. Every once in a while, switch scales or make a point to visit me.

Christmas break for me over tomorrow. No saddness though. My weight has been down, then up, then down again for this little vacation. So, what I have been wondering the last couple of days is this...will I do better back at work or not? I had a few days when I did not go downstairs (where the kitchen and food are) some days until anywhere between 10 am and noon. Lunch time. Dinner is usually around 4-5 pm. And I don't usually eat after that. So, weight-loss was easy on those days, especially if we did not have anywhere to go.

On workdays, LUNCH is still between 10 am and noon, but I have also worked half the day. Why does this worry me? I have done this before. It is not hard. I will let you know if/when I come up with an answer to that question. I suppose I am not really worried about eating at work. I may be more worried about the "bet" with my aide. I was hoping to be down JUUUUst a bit more than I am right now for our first weigh-in of the year.

Mind you, I am very competitive. Maybe it is the loss of control thing...I have no idea where I stand with her, how she has been doing, whatever,.... Maybe it is the stigma of being a WW leader and being in competition with a NON-WW person. OMG!! What will they think if I lose? Who is THEY anyway, and why do I care so much? Who knows? I suppose that I will have to get over it FAST.

I know what happened the last time I was in a competition like this....I LOST. Yikes, did I ever lose. NOT good.

Ok. That is over. I don't have to lose. Nor do I have to worry about her winning, right? I mean if this helps her to lose the weight she wants to, then good for her. I will lose the weight I want to, it just might not be before her. That is ok. I don't really have a date in mind for my goal. I just have the goal. (Although, by summer would be fun.)

Well, maybe I should have a goal date. That would give me reason to be motivated. So, how do you pick a date? I won't be in a wedding, I won't be getting family pictures anytime soon, I am not in a beauty pagent, mmmmmmm. How do I do this? Any ideas?

Mother's day.

James' kindergarten graduation is right after that. We have 2 birthday parties at the end of the month. Swimsuit season is right around the corner. It may be giving myself too far ahead, though. I only have about 8-10 to lose to be where I want to be. I will have to think about this for a while.

Today's diddy: "Not to decide....is to decide." --Author Unknown