Good night one and all.

It seems that I have been pretty good at maintaining my weight for the last several weeks. I usually eat all of my points then "splurge"on something fun for dessert. Or like the other day, I had a fun pancake breakfast with my family and nephews who were over for the night. I feel good in knowing that it has not been as hard as it has in the past.

Something is aching at me (besides the heartburn/gas I have right now). I know what it is. (I want to lose those last 3 pounds.) I know what to do about it. (I have to write it down.) I know that I want to start on this 3 days ago. I don't know why I continue to let the weekends get "away from me". I know better.

I know that tomorrow morning I am going to get my journal out again. (I put it away after the week that Rose challenged me to write it down.) So, why do I feel like my drive is gone? I am not sure what I need to do to get out of this funk. ......

For years I went through this every March/April where I question what I do for a living. Am I being effective as an educator? Am I making a difference in people's lives? Should I be doing something else with my life, if so, what? I think that this attitude has carried over into my WW job too. No worries, I will get over it. I will be ok. It will take a short period of time. I have not had this feeling since I have had my new teaching job. Until last week. Now I question everything.

And of course, as you know, it also effects how I take care of myself. It effects how I eat. It effects my weight. It effects how I treat my children.

So, the question of the day.....what to do about it? I think I might have the answer....













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GET A GOOD NIGHT'S SLEEP. Sleep is soooo important in everything we do from trying to lose weight to simply being functional.






Good night.
Love in Losing,
JEnny

Random Thoughts

First, my apologies to anyone who follows on a regular basis and I have not been there for you. My life as seem to gotten so busy that SOMETHING had to give.

Iknow that it is still early, but I have been doing a lot of thinking since our meeting this morning. You taught me a lesson....I need to introduce myself in detail during the Getting Started Session. I will be extremely brief during the meeting when it comes to that from now on. I was taught to do that in the meeting, but I was also taught that we should give the members what they want. Clearly, you don't want to hear my story every week.

I have been on this "I don't feel like I have been good at my job" thing with my FT job. I hope that I did not carry this over into the meeting this morning. If I did, I did not mean to. I have there for you.

I am going to get started on our "science fair boards" this week. I bought them while shopping today.

HERE WE GO.....

I have been maintaining my weight for the past few weeks. I think that I am happy where I am when I wake up in the morning. Why is it that by the time I go to bed at night I feel sooooo much different? I look at myself and think I should try to shed a few/couple more pounds. Wonder why that is?

I secretly would like to be 3-4 pounds less JUST so I can say that I am the same as before I got married. Really, more like the same as when I met my husband....for those who know the story, and I think you all do.

Today is going well so far. (food-wise). I will come back later today or tomorrow. I am getting ready for a housefull of kids and half of them have not had lunch yet.

Made it Mine

I only have random thoughts today.....

I made my goal this morning. For real this time, not just for a fleeting moment. In fact, I was .4 below, and so far today I feel good about how the rest of the week will turn out. I was a bit surprised by this mornings 1 pound loss, because yesterday for dinner I finished off a sleeve of thin mints.....Thank God THOSE are out of the house now. Thank God. We'll see how it really effects the scale in a day or so.

Ok, so I have NO idea how many points are in a whole sleeve of thin mints, but I did count my points the rest of the day (as I was dared by Rose). By the time I got to those thin mints, I had 16 points left for the day. Perhaps......

Now that I have met my goal, I need to think about if I like it here or if I think I should keep going. I like the idea of having a bit of a flatter stomach. But I am comfortable with me here. Not to mention that if I go much lower I WILL have to buy all new pants, mostly.

Secretly, I enjoy the compliments that I get. Or even just when people notice that I have lost weight.....wait til my mom's husband sees me now. OWWWW!


I just emailed the Relay for Life lady again. I hope that I hear from her. I am looking forward to it. Although, still in a quandry with what to do with my kids for that long, that late at night. humph. Something to think about.

I must get to bed at a decent hour tonight.....my new goal is to get to bed before 9pm 2-3 times per week.

Today's diddy: "Back-patting can whittle your waistline. Be first in line to congratulate yourself."
Love in Losing,
Jenny

4 thoughts for life....

I know that when I am at a church service I should focus more on the preacher. Today he said something that got me thinking about my whole life....I suppose that is a good thing. I could apply the 4 things he mentioned to make us better Christians to my Al-Anon life and my WW life.....

1.) Faith. We need to have faith in the program. There are professionals who work at the corporate office for us. They test this stuff. They have members in test markets use this stuff in real life before they present it to us, the service providers and you, the members. Have faith that if you stick with it you will lose weight.

2.) Courage. You had the courage to show up. You had the courage to walk in the room and sign up. You had the courage to come back. You now need the courage to continue on a road (that may be rough at times) in order to meet your goals. You are courageous. Demonstrate your greatness for others to be inspired.

3.) Obedience. Discipline yourself. Form habits. Make it a lifestyle change. Reward yourself for the good things, the goals met. Don't punish yourself for the slip-ups, use them as learning tools. Every experience in life gives us the opportunity to learn something. The hard part is recognizing it. (Quote me on that.)

4.) Patience. We did not get to where we were when we walked into WW overnight. It won't come off overnight either. Have patience with yourself. Don't expect perfection. Don't try to give up everything at once....you may set yourself up for failure that way....I would hate to see that happen. Allow yourself to mess up without punishing yourself horribly.

I would like to add #5: Strength. Sometimes, I think we have the courage to do the right thing, we just don't have the strength. This is when we have to dig down deep and pull ourselves up (or away from), dust ourselves off and tell ourselves that we CAN do this. We don't have to succumb to those cravings or "wantings".

So far so good. I have kept track of everything. How about you? Yesterday was not good though. My husband went to Shop-n-save for some last minute supplies for the birthday party we were hosting. He bought for ME some spicey/honey chicken nuggets from the deli. This is a weakness of mine. No idea how many points those are, but I had enough. Enough that I also wanted a beer. You know how that is....beer and wings....yum. I can only assume that most, if not all, of my WPA are gone.

I was speaking to my husband today about food. He messed up my BBQ mushrooms AGAIN. Measure the margerine, WAY less salt, and try not to burn them. In doing so, I found out that he likes to feed me. Those were his words. WHy do you suppose that is?!!! Wierd is what I thought. How can you keep me thin AND feed me at the same time? I told him that was like me serving him beer, but asking him to stay sober at the same time. DOESN'T HAPPEN, HONEY. THanks for trying though. I think that might have been a "term of enderment" for him.....to feed me. Who knows?

Today's diddy: "Even a stopped clock is right twice a day."

Love in Losing,
Jenny